There will be typos in this...but I must get these thoughts down.
I was told by someone to be happy today, ok, why? I tell people that I must be positive, I try or appear to be positive but why? How happy should I be? Life is not good, it is struggle to keep going. It is struggle to keep going for my daughter, son and wife. Yet I am being asked to be happy and positive for others. I seem to be consoling others for the situation, explain and saying sorry.
A few minutes ago my daughter started coughing, it sounded like choking, I never know that when I leave my daughter that might be the last time I see her alive. I saw a dead cat this morning, it looked so peaceful...it shook me up. There is so much that can go wrong, they are treating to cure, but we have been warned that the cure might kill her. So how happy should I be?| Yet, I'll be positive, I'll do what I have to do, be happy.....nah carpe diem, seize the day.
Sleep, who knows. Rest maybe, my mind can never rest. Humor, I am not going to laugh, what have I to laugh about. I will do the everything to the best of my ability.It helps hugely when I have the support of all of the kind, considerate and tolerant people I know. Thank you to those who provide that support.
As I read these words back, I feel better and see how I feel, this blog is called 'My little girl has cancer' it is designed for me to remember, to reflect and for people to have a window into my world.
I was told by someone to be happy today, ok, why? I tell people that I must be positive, I try or appear to be positive but why? How happy should I be? Life is not good, it is struggle to keep going. It is struggle to keep going for my daughter, son and wife. Yet I am being asked to be happy and positive for others. I seem to be consoling others for the situation, explain and saying sorry.
A few minutes ago my daughter started coughing, it sounded like choking, I never know that when I leave my daughter that might be the last time I see her alive. I saw a dead cat this morning, it looked so peaceful...it shook me up. There is so much that can go wrong, they are treating to cure, but we have been warned that the cure might kill her. So how happy should I be?| Yet, I'll be positive, I'll do what I have to do, be happy.....nah carpe diem, seize the day.
Sleep, who knows. Rest maybe, my mind can never rest. Humor, I am not going to laugh, what have I to laugh about. I will do the everything to the best of my ability.It helps hugely when I have the support of all of the kind, considerate and tolerant people I know. Thank you to those who provide that support.
As I read these words back, I feel better and see how I feel, this blog is called 'My little girl has cancer' it is designed for me to remember, to reflect and for people to have a window into my world.
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